Incomplete Story

all of a sudden shes inspired
with lots of words to write
overwhelmed by charactors
and bringing them to life
pen goes to paper
yet all of a sudden
she stops writing
and forgets why
caught in the sea of writers block
she swims and swims until she reaches a rock
this rock has sea moss all over it
but she climbs on it and almost slips
so she writes limericks that make no sense
the urge to write becomes less intense
what happened to the passion that she once had
to lose such a gift would be so sad
but just behind the rock she was standing upon
was a huge island, no one had ever stepped on
so she climbs through the rocks and finally arrives
no one there, she looks for life but sees no signs
what am i to write, she sighs to herself
i need to make a living so she puts her pen and paper up on the shelf

I Don't Need Your Permission

I don't need your permission
To wake up each morning, with a smile on my face
I don't need your permission
to walk with style and grace
I dont need your permission
To seek GOD for myself
I don't need your permission
To cry out to GOD for present help
I dont need your permission
To love unashamed
I don't need your permission
to live a life that you think is lame
I don't need your permission
To breathe the breath GOD has given me
I don't need your permission
To embrace life, wonderfully
I don't need your permission
To hear from GOD from above
I don't need your permission
To partake in GOD's undying love
I don't need your permission
To live the life that i choose
I don't need your permission
To bear the burden of GOD's use
I dont need your permission
To marry who i want
I really don't need your permission at all
Cause at the end of the day
Only GOD will have the say
He gave me permission to live life, HIS kind of way

I'm Outta Yo' Box

I am no longer in your box

i walk barefooted no longer wearing socks

just because your theology, of hypocrisy

doesnt agree with my honesty

that comes from above and screams and shouts of GOD's love

in midst of your mess of unloving foolishness

to you

to tell the truth in love is against the truth of GOD's love

so its okay to be hurt by the one bringing the word

their anointing is better than yours, touch not GOD's anointed one

so their evil anointing is greater than mine

how can you choose to be so spiritually blind

you put all your heart and soul into them

without even trusting the one who saved your soul from sin

youve known me from the beginning, ive always told the truth

ive never lied to you, my life is living proof

but oh they have a listof places youve never been

of people youve never seen

so they cant be in sin

but the blatently obvious is so far from your mind

when they throw lies in your face and treat you unkind

you dont have the money or pride of life to preach to me

so you would rather hear a word thats full of hypocrisy

im outta your box

Food

After church yesturday we went to the Mexican Cantina. I ordered the chicken tortilla. we initially ate chips and salsa. we ordered 2 mild and 1 hot. Boy, was the hot one HOT! So we sit and talk, i look around and see that on the wall next to their windows, there was mexican figures drawn, it was colorful, the table was hard wood, it was quaint, the food came rather quickly. first they sent the toppings for my tortilla which was chopped lettuce, chopped tomato, shredded cheese, sour cream and the best guacamole i had ever tasted, then finally our meals arrive, the two others ordered taco and chicken quesedilla. Then my food comes out, sizling in a skillet and she gives me a pot with 4 flour torillas, i drank apple juice mixed with seltzer, i didnt even put a dent in the delicious food. the chicken was seasoned lightly with what i think was a little cayenne pepper mixed with salt and onion powder. i ended up getting a take out tray. i dipped my chip in the sour cream and guacamole and it tasted so good that i just kept eating, even though i was full. But the day was great, i came back and took a nap!

Awesome Blessings!

Well a couple of weekends ago, i went to Belgium to shoot the Wereth 11 Ceremony that is normally held in remembrance of 11 african american soldiers that were murdered during the battle of the bulge in 1944. what an awesome opportunity i had, i even acquired a coin! well now i am going to the Gospel service, here at home. God blessed me with some awesome people that have adopted me into their lives, the good LORD knows i needed that! They even get my corny jokes, that nomally arent laughed at because they arent raunchy, inappopriate or plain mean. My pt has even improved, i can run forever and sprint, thank GOD! i had choir practice last week, what a blessing it is to be welcome in the house of the LORD. These people really serve GOD, they allow me to serve in any capacity, GOD has blessed me so, and i met them going to the Wereth 11 Ceremony!

Daily Blessings

GOD is so completely awesome! Today i found out that i have a detail this weekend. I will be guarding a post, which is completly awesome! I really want to contribute to the force here, guard duty is great! i thought i was going to need a ride to the location of my guard duty but the company is providing transportation, which is awesome. i Get guard duty with an awesome Sergeant! Today i get to do video, again! Next week i get to go and take pictures in a place i have already been to. GOD just sets me up all the time. Even yesturday, i got off work and missed the shuttle. I looked up and saw a Sergeant walking, i wasnt sure who he was, so i asked him had he seen the shuttle, because its unusual that she is late but i got out there just on time so she may have left already, he asked me where i was going, and we were going to the same place, and in fact, he lives across the hallway from me. Then this morning, i was supposed to take pictures of our run, but i wasnt assigned a camera kit yet and i forgot that i couldnt use my Supervisors, because he would be using it. As soon as we got back to our barracks, i asked another Sergeant that i saw about the run, he said it was cancelled, possibly. So i called one of my supervisors, and he checked to see if it was, and it was cancelled. GOD totally is my husband, and He takes so much care of me

Europa Park

i had lots of fun on Saturday at Europa Park. i only got on 3 rides. but the people i went with made the trip so enjoyable. the Blue Fire was a ride we waited over 2 hours for, but it was well worth it beacause by the time i got on, i thought i was going to die from the heat, no it was from the ride. so im waiting and just about to go out and wait for the next ride to pull up. it pulls up and the worker directs me to the back end of the ride. i was thinking "oh my God, this is the most impactful part of the ride!" so i got in, then handed my purse to one of the people i was riding with, she put it away. we all locked ourselves in, the workers checked to make sure we were locked in, then the ride takes off. i grip the bars in front of me and its telling me my pulse rate is in the 100's, it goes through a tunnel and into a room, then turns into another room, where it stops and there is a countdown, my pulse is way up there now, then it takes of at a breathtaking speed that all i can do is scream. i close my eyes, take a breath then scream again. i open my eyes to see that we are just about to go into a twirl, i close them again and continue to scream, then the ride slows down as i am screaming, i peek out of one eye and see that we are about to stop, then i finally stop screaming. I had an awesome time with some awesome people! yet i almost lost my voice from this ride!!!

My birthday weekend-Friday

i have to admit, i have the best people to work under, i think, in the Army. They threw me a party for my birthday. I am so completely blessed! An intern that recently left came back and brought some of the best chicken wings i have ever tasted along with fried rice. then we went to the Lieutenant Colonal's office and they had a sheet cake covered in white icing with the letters written on it Happy Birthday Iesha, written in red. There blew up heart balloons and gave me a gift and a card

Today in another country

I have prayed most of my life to get out of my hometown. I was abused a lot, mistreated, lied on, stolen from, set up and so on. So I get another job thinking that would change, yet it didnt. So i joined the Army and even worse happened to me. But what i see now is that God blesses me beyond every situation. i mean every bad thing that has happened to me, GOD would bless me with the same boldness. When i was in training, there were people that did what they could to try and make everything harder for me. I warned some of them and continued to be kind, yet in the end the very things they want its made ever harder for them to get. So with persecutions, come blessings? it says in Mark 10:29-31, Jesus says that there has never been any one who has left their home, parents, siblings or jobs for Him and the gospels sake, that will ever fail to recieve one hundred times more in their lifetime with persecution and in the life to come eternal life. So how much are you willing to pay for GOD to get all the glory?