Factory of Death

Sometimes i get so tired. I walk with GOD and my own brothers fight against me. I look for refuge, but find another snakes den. I need to find a place where i can heal. Where i can be strengthened. People have sucked the life out of me and death is looming all around me. Where is my refuge? Where is the church that was holy, upright, faithful and loving? All i see is the bending of truth to suit carnal desires. What happened to the refiners fire, the ones that were called out, the ones that are lights shining in darkness. Every door i knock on seems to be manufactured for my death. I am dying inside, and no one to hear, no one sheds tears anymore for sin, everyone seeks the fulfillment of their own pleasure no matter the expense of others. I refuse to believe that its okay to sin and walk with Christ at the same time. I refuse to believe that it is okay to give in to sin, and say im walking right with GOD. GOD please take away this deadly doctrine of sin and renew me with the wholeness that i need to succeed in your plan. OH GOD, help me to be strong when opinions are told to be greater than your plan, open my heart and mind to your will, may that be the only thing i see, let every other sight be taken away from me. Remove from me a selfish spirit, replace in me you true foundation. that no matter the wind or waves, on my heart, mind, spirit and soul, YOUR will is engraved.

I wish i could forget

Today i saw one of my favorite tv shows
it confronted an issue of one of lifes woes
something i wish that i could forget
something that was hell sent
he forced himself on me, out of surprise
now im afraid every guy around, always lies
behind those eyes, that i longed to stare
rested a soul of violence that took a piece of me i could not repair
i wish i could shrug it off as an after thought
after all, its been almost 2 years since i experienced that shock
i wish i was one that could forget, the one that had eyes that were hellbent
i wish i could have ran, i wish i would have fought,
i wish someone had come around the corner and that he got caught
instead i sigh and cry
about one who forced me to lie
now i nurse the wounds of a soul beaten and bruised
i wish i could forget

Say WHAAAT!

You can say what you want to say about me
You can come up with all kind of lies about me
But at the end of the day, GOD will have the last say
And HE will recieve me heaven and embrace me kindly